Sometimes, I talk a lot because I have a lot to say. Other times, I don't talk much because I don't have much to say. But sometimes, often lately, I don't talk much because I have TOO much to say. Who wants to hear it? No one. Who can I really trust to hear it? No one.
So instead I have a blog. A blog that no one reads. So it's perfect for saying how I'm feeling. Actually, I have two blogs. So depending on which subject is really on my mind decides which blog it goes on.
But then sometimes, like today, I have so much to say but when I sit down to actually write it out, it won't come. The tears- they will come, uninvited even. But all the words that feel so close I can touch them - they won't come out.